Recently, I have mood swings. Oh, and I think I might suffer from bipolar disorder too. Haha, just kidding. This is only temporary, I'm sure of it. I hope so. Because I totally hate riding this roller coaster of emotions. But someone's been giving me headache recently. Or rather, disappointing me over and over again. You see, the thing is, you may be someone I'd take out for a lunch just for the spontaneity of it and someone I'd love to go shopping with or whatever, but you're definitely not someone I can rely on. Evidently, you're not someone I'd run to when I'm having the worse day of my life or merely a bad hair day. You're not someone I trust and not someone I'd like to share my problems with. You're like a big tub of ice cream on my "feel-fat-day", always making me feel bad about myself. You're like the sunshine in my head, always here during the good times but never there during those bad times. Somehow, I don't know how you'd always find a way to brush me off or let me down. Yeah, you never fail to disappoint me. But it's funny how I always hope the best for you. And it's even more bizarre how I always want you to be happy. How I'm always pleasing you. I guess I was just looking for some sort of approval from you. Or maybe I just want you to like me. Whatever it is, it's not worth it. I know, what a stupid thing to do, right. And I can't believe that it took me this long to finally realize that I don't need you or anyone else, for that matter, to tell me how much I'm worth. I'm glad that I have my friends who actually cares. Well, at least I hope so. Because who knows. It's just hard for me to trust anyone else. I don't know what's with me and my trust issues. But gotta face it, somehow. People seems to enjoy letting other people down nowadays. Don't you agree? But I'm not gonna turn away from the people who love me for who I am because of that one person who don't. In fact, I'll love them more! Ya'll know who you are. Don't need for me to mention any names, aite. =)

Well, okay, I think I feel a lot better already by now. Haha. This is why I love writing. It's like the perfect remedy for depression, ya' know. Writing for the love of writing is something that you do without any thoughts being given to or the possibility of reimbursement. There aren't any incentives needed to write when you love to write. It's just amazing how simple things like writing could make a big difference, at least to me. See, I'm happy already! Hehe. =)



Oh and btw, where's the harmony, people? Yeah, I'm talking about the attacks on churches. (And okay, I know this is totally out of topic, but, like, whatever. Haha) I bet you'll know, if you're not ignorant. I'm not a Christian but I do know well enough that churches are considered as a holy place for worship. I thought we're supposed to respect each other, given that we live in a multi-racial community. Where's your moral values? Like, have you forgotten all about it or something? Children all over Malaysia are taught Nilai-Nilai Moral in secondary schools but why aren't the adults practicing it? Alright, let me remind you some, which you can totally practice, considering the fact that you've obviously forgotten. =)

For a start, try Nilai Toleransi - Kesanggupan bertolak-ansur, sabar dan mengawal  diri bagi mengelakkan berlakunya pertelingkahan dan perselisihan faham demi kesejahteraan hidup.
>> Yes, I understand why you're upset and everything, but can't you just learn to tolerate? FYI, we do live in a multi-racial country. And it takes tolerance to live in peace and harmony, no?


And how about Nilai Rasional - Boleh berfikir berdasarkan alasan dan bukti yang nyata dan dapat mengambil tindakan berasasakan pertimbangan yang wajar.
>> And again, yes I know you're blardy angry over the use of the name "Allah" by non-muslims, the Christian Herald newspaper, to be precise, but come on! I'm sure you know that arson is so wrong and totally irrational. And hey, your actions could hurt someone physically, you know. Like, someone totally innocent.


Oh, and not forgetting Nilai Mematuhi Peraturan Dan Undang-Undang - Menerima dan mematuhi peraturan dan undang-undang yang telah ditentukan tanpa mengira sesiapa dan di mana seseorang itu berada. 
>> Well, your action is just plain wrong and irresponsible. Evidently, arson is also a crime. Enough said, I think.

And of course, last but not least, Nilai Hidup Bersama Secara Aman - Hidup berbaik-baik antara satu sama lain dengan mengutamakan kedamaian dan keharmonian hidup tanpa mengira agama, bangsa dan budaya. (I bold/enlarge those words because I think that most Malaysians are missing the most important point here.)
  >> Err, need I say more? I don't think chaos equals peace. Agree?



Hmm, and what's up with those groups on Facebook? Ya' know, the "We support the use of the name 'Allah' by all Malaysians" and the "Menentang Penggunaan Nama 'Allah' Oleh Golongan Bukan Islam". What's wrong with all these people, especially the one who created those groups on Facebook. Total crap, seriously. I mean, aren't there enough racial and religious tension already? Come on, there's already so much chaos going on that I'm certain you don't have to start turning to Facebook to protest. 


P.S : Not trying to offend anyone. Dude, I'm just practicing my nilai kebebasan bersuara. Hehe. =)  

So come on, peace and harmony everyone! And to those arsonists, no offense but violence (Or arson, in this case) is never the answer. How about we try a thing called respect and tolerance? Like, I'll respect your religion and you'll respect mine and others as well? And even if you do feel the need (or want) to protest or whatever it is, let's do so in a civilized manner, shall we? There's a reason for the existence of law. Also, let's not forget that we are, after all, 1Malaysia!  


P.P.S : God bless the victims and survivors of the Haiti earthquake.

Well okay, this is one totally random post. And I guess I mistaken my blog as my personal/private journal. Haha. But whatever. I was just typing whatever that's in my mind now. =D 
And I think Imma stop here, aite'.
  
But hey! I'm gonna end my super long and boring post with my newest obsession. Hehe. =)


He's effin' hot, BTW. Yeah, some people think that he's a freak mainly because of his over-the-top hairstyle and make-up. But there's just something "freaky" about him that I'm totally and freakishly attracted to him! Haha, does that make sense to ya', anyway? Well, I guess not. Dude, I'm just so fascinated by him, seriously! Haha. Oh, and he's so NOT gay alright! So stop calling him gay just to irritate me! It's so not funny. But so what if he is? He's still freaking charming! =)

And check out their new album, Humanoid. I'm telling you, it's freaking awesome! "World Behind My Wall" is my favorite single off this album, so far. Hehe. 

Name’s Choon Mei or Tammy. I may be sarcastic at times, but nice some other times. And I'm lame at times. (but I'm not that annoying, I swear! Lol. :P) I had a sweet tooth. I love lollipops. I love M&M's and I'm always craving for candies. I love skateboarding! I don't skate for anything or anyone, I skate for fun! I also love playing basketball. I'm totally against racism and sexism. Anyway, read the blog if ya' wanna know more. Love you for reading!
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